For starters, I’m up at three in the morning because the damn red bull I drank on the way home from a four hour car ride is just now kicking in. Of course, as I drink it in the car I’m only more tired and manage to fall asleep, yet now that I’m in a nice comfortable bed I can’t sleep for shit.
I’m just so pissed right now. I cannot wait until graduation and finally turning eighteen. Cause then, I am sooo gone.
Shit always hits the fan when I’m away from home, and of course no one is up this early for me to talk to anybody about it. I just really wish I have the ability to cry- because I have an intense urge to just let it all out. Idfk why I can’t cry, but this is one of the only times I’ve ever wished I could.
There’s just too much on my plate right now. School/senior project, prom, friends, family, boy(s). It never comes one at a time- just one big fucking wave.
I just need arms around me. Right cause that’s gonna happen right now
I’m shocked. Like f’real. Apparently wordpress is telling me that I had 14 views today! I was like, whaa? Blog, you trippin’. Hahah.
So the hockey game I went to was amazing. Even though we lost it was still one of the craziest games I’ve ever seen, except the rink was ghetto as fuck. It was sad, watching all the guys after the final buzzer. We were one game away from state & it seemed like the seniors took it the hardest- last chance at glory now gone. Still was an amazing season, though, and they put up one hell of a fight.
I’ve figured out what I want to do at some point in my life. I’m watching Due Date, atm, and I realized how badly I want to go on a road trip. No where in particular; I just want to travel. It’ll happen someday, hahah.
Ugh, I’m exhausted. I’ve been up since 8 this morning- earliest Saturday in a long while, and it’s affecting my blog writing skills. I thought I had so much more to write, but my tiredness is killing me. Peace for now?
So obviously I haven’t updated this in a while. My bad. Haaa. I’ve been really busy, though- so it’s all good.
I’ve been going to a lot of hockey games lately because we’re in the playoffs, and I cannot even begin to describe how crazy the last game I saw was. Our team clearly kicked the other team’s ass (6-0) but there was so much intensity during the whole game. It was exciting as fuck. Hockey is definitely becoming my new favorite. There’s another reason why I go too, but that’s whatever. Probably mythological & yes, I’m prepared to leave you wondering with what that may mean, because I’m not saying shit. (:
Scariest experience happened to me yesterday, too.
I was pulled over for the first time ever! I can’t even deny that I wasn’t doing anything wrong, though, because I was hardcore speeding. He tagged me at 43 mph in a 25 and he says that was after I was slowing down, but honestly, I don’t ever remember using the brake pedal. I didn’t see the guy at all- damn, he was well hidden. It wasn’t until after I passed by him that my friend alisa had said something. I didn’t think anything of it because I’ve always been lucky in getting away with shit, and sure enough; there were the cherries & berries in my rearview mirror. I pulled over, thinking “Okay, he’s going to pass by. He’s just going after someone else.” Nope- not so lucky…
Because it was my first time he dropped the speed down to 35 so the ticket wouldn’t be as much, and to make matters worse, my plates were expired! I had no clue, and I guess they have been since november. Hahah- oops. Although that part isn’t my fault. I didn’t have my registration with me either! It was sitting in my mom’s car! The cop thought we had stole the car and he questioned me and everything. It was sooo scary.
So this morning, I took a different way to school. Just in case he would be waiting there again